Provokes nothing in me
There are many different types of grief and all people feel them, and in different ways. I have felt many different types of grief and in many different ways for a 17 year old girl. But the grief I feel know is like poison that slowly suffocates me. It makes it hard to breathe. I am everyday feeling more and more trapped, I know deep down that I will be ok I will get out of here and I will be free and happy, I will help people and the world, I will do much good. I have known seance I was little my "purpose". Which is a blessing I know. Most people will never know that sense of clarity. I was meant to love fiercely. Knowing this is give me a sense of responsibility to love, use it the most, I must do everything I can. I burn to think if I died tomorrow and knew what I was made for and did not do all I am capable of. I feel trapped where I am, where I live, what I do, my age, my station and my situation. I am told I put to much pressure on myself but If I don't than I wil...